Biased to those that have stuck by me in the past, I think that it's become difficult for me to go out and meet new people. Making myself vulnerable, opening up to a stranger. Maybe if I was alone, no choice but to meet someone new, I would be more accepting of opening myself up to pain or disappointment. Or maybe if I had one trustworthy friend to stick by me and guide me through the treacherous waters, I would be more comfortable. I stay closed for the moment, keeping my feelings to myself, till someone trustworthy finally shows up.